A thought...

So, while talking to my mei, I came upon a thought. I think I'm trying to rush into a relationship, like the one I had w/ Lily, even though it takes time. I guess I need to be patient. It seems like I wanna hurry up and get into that comfort zone, that secure zone...

I need to stop.

Theories

People say, when you're in a relationship, you go with the flow. What does that mean exactly? I've come to think that it means go at your own pace, at whatever is comfortable for you. See, I've been trying to anticipate the other person's pace, and trying to match. Everytime it's ended up in failure. Do what you want to do, when you want to do it. If you wanna see her tonight, see her tonight. If they can't keep up, maybe it's time to move on. Now, I'm not trying to say move too fast, like rush into anything. Just go. Don't think too much and go. Don't be worried about getting hurt, because everyone gets hurt at one time or another. It's just a fact of life. And if we don't take risks, how are we supposed to find what truly makes us happy? If the relationship doesn't last, won't it feel better knowing you did what you wanted to do while you were in it, rather than holding yourself back? If the other person doesn't respond, then adapt. Girls like guys who are assertive. If you're constantly thinking whether or not they'll like something, you'll end up not doing it. At least if you're trying to do things (even simple things like holding hands), and they don't respond well to it, at least you're trying and not staying idle like a pansy. I guess that's what's on my mind right now.

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What the hell is going on with my life. It's so crazy right now. It's like a rollercoaster with crazy horizontal movement.

Take me away Bennie K...

sigh

Ah, the rollercoaster of life.

Wait, according to my spellcheck, rollercoaster is two words. Fuck that. It's one word now. Rollercoaster.

The Dating Game...

Looks like I'm starting to get a hang of this whole dating thing after more than a decade in relationships. That said, I'm starting to really dislike girls. Especially koreans. New dating/relationship requirement after this one: Girl must have both parents. Then again, I can never really stick to my standards. She's starting to remind me of the Japanese one. Not a good sign. Mei says I'm dating too much (3 since Jan). Is that really too much? Dunno.

Anyways, I'm very grateful to have my mei there for me. I feel blessed. She's a great sister and I couldn't ask for more.

WALL-E

I've been trying to refrain from writing about this movie, but I haven't been able to get it out of my head. Anyways, I'll just get to the point. WALL-E was probably one of the best movies I've seen all year and will probably go down as one of my favs of all time. It's probably one of the cutest, sweetest movies I've ever seen. It made me a little teary eyed a few times during the movie (which I tried to hide from my date (hope I was successful)). It makes me a little sad every time I think about it. As soon as the movie opens, you almost instantly start becoming emotionally attached to WALL-E. This excerpt from Time magazine's review kinda explains what I mean:

"There's an instant poignancy to his puttering around the late, great planet Earth like a solitary child on an abandoned playground, or an oldster among his souvenirs. WALL•E's special ache is his nostalgia for a life he never lived, for the intimate connection only humans enjoy." [Source]

Blah, I'm sad again.