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no matter how matter how compatible we are, it doesn't matter anymore.

Ouch... :(

My chat mannerisms

lol = I'm actually laughing
haha = probably smiled, might have not, but humoring the person I'm chatting with
ha = maybe smirked, maybe didn't, but being sarcastic

A letter to Mei

Dated Sept 8th. I guess it's finally time for it to go up on the blog...

After re-reading the letter, I guess I left out the part where the korean girls I've dated this year play a factor in this as well. I guess it's implied when I mention "stress problems", and since mei knows the events of my entire life, I figured she knew that part.

Hi Mei,

I didn't want to blog about this or type it out in chat, so I'll just write you an e-mail. Hope you don't mind. Anyways, I've been doing some thinking and it seems with most of my problems, there is a korean behind it. My major credit problems, my stress problems this year. Even when I hang out w/ my korean friends, I feel like an outsider. I'm seriously considering dropping the korean people I know (with the exception of a few) from my life. It does seem worth it. I also feel like I'm becoming racist towards all of them. I think I'm starting to automatically dislike every korean I meet (or even see). I find myself hoping for the worst in their country. Hoping they'll lose in the olympics was a start. Gosh, I don't know mei, am I overreacting? Am I being unreasonable? It just seems like life would be so much better w/o them. W/in my group, I'm the only Chinese person. They seem to always find flaws in any other Chinese person who ends up hanging out w/ us, and they don't like that person. I know they have their prejudices, but I dunno. I dunno what I'm saying. It just seems like no Korean is worth knowing. I think I'm finished writing. Thanks for always being there mei.

<3 Casey

Ah, the first rain

I love the rain. How I missed you...

Interesting analogy about men...

From CNN.com

"They love to win," Gary says. "Does he have ownership in the team? It looks like that. But as long as they're in the game, even to the very end, they'll watch. Once it's a blowout and they know their team can't win, television goes off. And what a lot of men will say to me through this research is, 'I just felt like I couldn't win.' Now they might not have been great guys to live with, I'm not saying it's her fault, again. But if you want to secure your relationship and understand and have the knowledge of men, make them feel like they're winning with the things that they do for you."

source

BoA

I love BoA. Whenever I'm down, she always seems to cheer me up. I tend not to listen to her music as much when I'm happy, just when I need cheering up. Actually, I tend to listen to her music when things look like they may be getting better. I've been listening to her a lot lately, so hopefully it still holds true. I'm glad I bought her album when I was in Tokyo.