A letter to Mei

Dated Sept 8th. I guess it's finally time for it to go up on the blog...

After re-reading the letter, I guess I left out the part where the korean girls I've dated this year play a factor in this as well. I guess it's implied when I mention "stress problems", and since mei knows the events of my entire life, I figured she knew that part.

Hi Mei,

I didn't want to blog about this or type it out in chat, so I'll just write you an e-mail. Hope you don't mind. Anyways, I've been doing some thinking and it seems with most of my problems, there is a korean behind it. My major credit problems, my stress problems this year. Even when I hang out w/ my korean friends, I feel like an outsider. I'm seriously considering dropping the korean people I know (with the exception of a few) from my life. It does seem worth it. I also feel like I'm becoming racist towards all of them. I think I'm starting to automatically dislike every korean I meet (or even see). I find myself hoping for the worst in their country. Hoping they'll lose in the olympics was a start. Gosh, I don't know mei, am I overreacting? Am I being unreasonable? It just seems like life would be so much better w/o them. W/in my group, I'm the only Chinese person. They seem to always find flaws in any other Chinese person who ends up hanging out w/ us, and they don't like that person. I know they have their prejudices, but I dunno. I dunno what I'm saying. It just seems like no Korean is worth knowing. I think I'm finished writing. Thanks for always being there mei.

<3 Casey