Secret lovers...

So I'm sitting here listening to this song on Grooveshark (awesome site by the way).

One night, probably more than 10 years ago, I was driving home from what seems like the city (dunno), with the radio tuned in to 96.5 KOIT. It was fairly late, so "For Lovers Only" was on, which is the song dedication part. So the DJ comes on, and announces a dedicatoin, from a man to a woman. The dedication being this song. It really threw me off, as this was the first time I was exposed to something like this in real life. I dunno, thinking about it even now makes me feel weird.

A list of my favorite songs (past and present)

Pinay - Next Time (late 1990's)
Ayumi Hamasaki - Voyage (2002ish)
Bennie K - コカコーラ (2008-09)
Fish Leong - 無條件為你 (2006-present)

The video that started it all...

This is the vid that started my whole thing for BoA 5 years ago...

My Christmas Songs

Well, since Christmas is nearing, I figured I should list my songs through the years:

2006: Little Drummer Boy
2007: Grown Up Christmas Wish
2008: Last Christmas

Last Christmas...

My song of the moment (by BoA of course). I feel like it talks to me.

Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away.
This year to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special.

I actually feel like I identify with it. A lot of the lyrics chronicle how I've felt over the past year.

My gosh I thought you were someone to rely on?
Me? I guess I was a shoulder to cry on

Yeah...

Smile Again

My song of the moment. According to iTunes, I've listened to it 223 Times. A little less than 100 of those times within the past week. It actually hurts knowing I have to resort to listening to this song to make me feel better. It's like my last resort. Basically, the song trying to uplift yourself because you're so down. For me, it means that nothing else has worked, and no one else can help. Apparently BoA wrote it during a hard/sad time in her life last year.

Forever

This song is probably one of my faves right now. It's like a metaphor for how I see a perfect relationship. Makes me just want to dance forever.

Songs of the exes (and other girls)

A - I swear - All for One
K - So in Love - Jacky Cheung & Regine Velasquez
V - All My Life - K-Ci and Jojo
H - Lost in Your Eyes - Debbie Gibson
L - Everyday I Love You - Boyzone
H - Hey There Delilah - Plain White T's

Bennie K

So I was talking to Annie, and we somehow got into the conversation about how I feel I'm changing (in terms of my attitudes, cares, etc...). It was a long conversation and I was basically trying to tell her that she needs to do what she wants, and be happy with herself, before she jumps into a relationship. So I was kind of explaining my moods, mannerisms, and such, and typing it out made me realize that I am changing for the better. Granted, life still sucks, but I like where things are headed.

Which brings me to the subject of this entry. Bennie K. Gosh I love them, haha. Anyhow, the songs I've been listening to the most are their songs. One of them is モノクローム (which I've written about), and the other is Dreamland. These two songs reflect how I feel probably 90% off the time. One song is depressing, talking about a monochrome life, and wanting to break out and get away. The other one is upbeat, happy, and fun. I listen to both of these songs about evenly, so I guess I can say I'm feeling upbeat and happy about half the time, and depressed and monochrome the other half. Where would I be if Rika hadn't introduced me to Bennie K? And Rika wouldn't have introduced me to them if I hadn't gone to Japan. And I wouldn't have gone to Japan if I were still seeing h. Also, if I were still seeing h, I wouldn't be making these positive strides towards a better me. Interesting how things work out...

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Songs and mood

So for a while now I've believed the songs you listen to reflect your mood. So when I look at the play count on itunes, I can kinda see how I've been feeling for the past while. So the top two played songs on my itunes are モノクローム (monochrome) by Bennie K, and 好心分手 (it's better if we break up) feat. 王力宏 by 盧巧音. モノクローム is pretty much about being down in life, feeling stuck in a place you don't want to be, being sick of emotion, and wanting for fly away. It's pretty much about a monochrome life, and it's exactly how I feel. 好心分手 is about breaking up. One person doesn't want to be with the other, and the other is trying save it. Sad song.

Songs

Songs are a big part of my life. When I'm feeling down, and it seems that there is no one there for me, I find comfort in music. I guess it feels like the singer is there keeping me company, and it makes me feel better.

So without further adieu, here is the song. Thank you Rika for introducing me to them.

BENNIE K / モノクローム

Song...

Argh, I kept hearing this song while walking around in Shibuya, and I can't find it!!! You can barely hear it in the background of this video (starting at around 10 sec up until the end of the vid). Hopefully I'll find it. Everytime I hear the song (in my head), I think of how fun it was in Tokyo). :(

(these aren't my vids btw)

And this one @ about 35 sec into the vid!!!!